the edge

a man.
is a liar.
is an enemy.
is the opposite.
of a friend.
who's my man.
is an enemy.

cynicism:
my "thing."
was my edge.
but.
the love.
i grew.
for you.
made those years.
of being against men.
a waste.
because i became.
for you.
not.
against you.

BUT.
every half-truth.
every "i forgot."
every "didn't see it."
every hollow apology.
every disappointment.
lets the cynicism.
back in.

at least.
i'll get.
my edge.
back.


my friends were getting worried.